adminDuring the last three days, I like many, many others I have been experiencing a lot of varied and conflicting emotions. Among them are hope, disbelief, disappointment, sadness, anger, fear, trepidation and terror as well as many others that are negative.
Earlier this morning, I was experiencing hopelessness. I couldn’t go back to sleep so I got up and tinkered with a small personal project. I made some headway with that and began to feel a little better as I assured myself that I still had some autonomy over myself. I was able to return to my bed and was eventually able to fall asleep again.
Upon waking, I began to recognize an emotion that I hadn’t experience in a while. I felt determined. I decided that I don’t have to be a victim of the current circumstances. I therefore resolved to seek out opportunities to try to lessen or mitigate some of the challenges will inevitably come up in the next 4 years. I have no illusions of being able to solve anything, but my actions might make a positive difference to someone. As of now, I intend to keep fighting the good fight.
Long term, I don’t know what I will feel like next year, next month, next week, tomorrow or even 60 seconds from now. I hope that I can remember what I’m currently feeling and return to it as many times as I need to.
I’m going to try to take care of myself, my family, my loved ones, my life partner and anyone who comes to me and needs some help or encouragement. I hope that I have what is necessary to give at those times.
In the meantime, I am wishing that all who read this are able to take care of themselves, their love ones and people who need comfort.
So, I plead with you to take care of yourselves, and each other. These people are all we have.
Peace.